A whisper of prayer

Dear God,

If I can just write my feelings out to You, I will.

In fact, I’m doing that right now. And I don’t know yet how this will go. But this will definitely come right out of my heart.

In the past few months, You have taught me a lot about managing my finances. You were a great teacher.

You have used people to inspire me to be a good steward. I thank You for people like Bo Sanchez, who have emphasized the importance of returning Your portion.

And that’s not because You need anything from me or from anyone. For anything that we give comes from You.

But who am I, and what is my people, that we should be able to offer so willingly after this sort? for all things come of Thee, and of Thine own have we given Thee.
1 Chronicles 29:14

Well, indeed, everything comes from You.

And not only that.

I have also learned that the secret to abundance is LOVE.

Oh, good old principle called Love!

You are Love, after all. Your character and Your nature is Love. How fascinating is that!

And You own everything. You are the God of abundance.

And no, this is not the prosperity gospel. This is just the truth.

You are the owner of everything, dear God.

You are the owner of all riches and mercies and grace.

And You are extending everything to us, Your creations.

According to Your principle of life and living, the key to having abundance is to love.

And love gives.

Love is self-giving.

Love is generous.

To be truly rich means to operate according to the principle of love.

Love must be the purpose of creating wealth.

And love must be the process at which wealth is created.

1. Love is the purpose

Love has to be the purpose of building wealth. That just means I need to not just think of myself. I need to do this for others as well.

And I know it sounds like I am necessitating myself. Well, I am just trying to say that if I want to have more, my heart needs to give more.

Do I understand that fully well? Maybe not yet. I admit I am still learning.

It’s just that God’s universe is wired such that givers are all the more blessed.

While those who hoard and are greedy do not get more.

Well, they may get more, but they will often resort to fraud just to do that.

Fraud, oh fraud!

Recently, that has been the word of the day for me. I no longer want to work with people and clients and agencies and companies that resort to fraud just to get more.

That actually transitions us smoothly to the next principle of true wealth creation.

2. Love is the process

Love must be the process of building wealth, else, all the other means and ways will just bite you back.

What do I mean by that?

Well, think of the many instances where people who have tried fooling people just to gain more money—these fraudulent individuals and organizations have eventually collapsed.

That is the ultimate damned destination for anyone who tries to fool the game.

Well, You God, You cannot be fooled. Clearly.

Now I am beginning to see why this has to happen.

My resignation, I mean.

Oh, and I just realized that just last January of this year, I’ve been one of those employees who got retrenched. Well, it was not a final fire, so eventually they got me back later.

And during those days of not being with them, I may have vowed not to do anything fraudulent from my end again.

Meaning to say, I will be honest with my hours. And I have tried so hard to when I finally got back.

But You, God, had more in store for me. For my growth.

So You made me realize through the influences of some people how it is super important to actually find and work only for clients that align with your values.

Or maybe I just learned that gradually and indirectly. Hmm, doesn’t matter.

What matters is that I need to see this time how the company itself is using super fraudulent means to make money.

And by fraudulent means, I mean to say selling inferior products and high markups just to get some really high profit margins.

And then they would attract all the innocent buyers with their 60% off strategy.

What in the world was I even doing when I tried to defend this company with fake positive reviews on their Facebook account?

Don’t you tell me I’ve been blinded all along!?

Well I was. I’ve been. And now I am here to try and correct all that.

Okay, let me get back here after just a minute or two of erasing that fake review of mine. Tsk.

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Okay, so maybe I have already erased that some time ago because I couldn’t find it now.

So actually I slept before continuing to write.

And when I woke up today, one of the things that came up to me was this YouTube video by my good college classmate Kayrol Ann.

So she quit her job to focus more on content creation and leave her personal “Egypt.”

And I feel like I am doing the same thing, too.

But You, God, was up to something more today.

You made me realize that I was still defrauding the only client I have left. Oh, K***y! I find it troublesome to learn later today that she noticed how long I took to finish just one article. And I know my hours were inaccurate!

Tsk tsk.

I really need some changing up in my life.

I knew I had been the strictest elementary school pupil in the world. But that was decades ago.

Along the way, I have stumbled and fallen. Not at all the best version of myself right now. Not at all like Jesus.

Poor me!

Anyway, Providence truly works, as the verse for today seems to be talking about me, too.

Well, thank You, Lord.

I feel like You have been chastening me these past few weeks dear God. And especially today.

Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.
Hebrews‬ ‭12:11‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

That is exactly the verse for today. No chastening is joyful! I know, right?

This isn’t exactly the best feeling in the world. I felt down to be honest.

But now I’m taking this to you, dear God. I know I can only find comfort in You.

Well, everything seems to come together now.

Me meeting Rosella Jane “RJ” Vargas since the 30-Day Client-Getting Blueprint. And then learning from her words and example that integrity and authencity are truly key.

And spontaneity, too.

Very far from me—the spontaneity thing, I mean.

But possible, whenever I think of nothing. Just making a brain-dump of everything that hits me and is bothering me.

I am and have been stressed, dear God. Save me.

Good thing I watched The Chosen’s Season 2 Episode 6 last night. Thank You, really, for it.

It was awesome.

I feel like watching it again now.

The Sabbath is made for me. Not me for the Sabbath.

Well thank You for letting me know that, dear God.